Harvest by HIGHS (Friday Music)

I don’t usually do two posts in one day, but I realized it was Friday and I’ve been wanting to share this band since this past Saturday. I really didn’t want to wait another week, so yeah.

Anyway, I’m not going to write a whole lot on this. I’m just going to say that I seriously fell in love with this band after hearing them.

Hopefully you’ll like them too. šŸ™‚

I think I hate you, Mercury.

I feel like I owe everyone an apology, partially for a sort of absence on here and mostly due to how long it’s been taking me to get back with . . .Ā everyone. I wonder if there will ever be a point in time where it doesn’t take me such ridiculously long stretches to get back with people consistently.

Yeah, probably not.

I guess I just need to accept that. I mentioned in the last post that my husband always tells me, “You’re only one person.” Obviously I hear that when I get stressed about one thing or another with work, at least when I’m stressing to the point where I tell him about it. Honestly? I hear thatĀ at leastĀ once a week. Seems like every time I do one thing, there’s this little voice telling me I should be doing something else. (Sometimes it’s notĀ littleĀ in the slightest.) ‘It’s taken you over three hours to write this email. Don’t you know you have book stuff to be doing?’ (It happens.) ‘You’re writing right now? Don’t you know you have a pile of things you need to respond to? These people are going to think you’re a major a-hole.’

Lately it’s been, ‘You’re not doingĀ anythingĀ productive? Don’t you know you have thisĀ massiveĀ pile of things that need doing? I mean, really. Aren’t you aware?’

I’ve been in a slump for about three weeks now, the sort of slump that I absolutelyĀ hate. I can usually get stuff done in someĀ regard no matter how I’m feeling. The last few weeks? Nope.

I blamed it on the bad feels from the piracy garbage for about two and a half of those weeks. I’d tried to write afterward (because that almost always makes me feel better), and it just wasn’t working. It felt like I’d been sapped of about 94% of my energy stores. I also blamed it on the new scheduling and being awake (mostly) during the day. (My brain doesn’t function as well when it’s light outside. No joke.) I blamed it on the stress of upcoming releases and scrambling trying to get stuff done. But whatever I was feeling went beyond all that. Usually, no matterĀ whatĀ is going on, I can and will findĀ somethingĀ to do. I just haven’t wanted to. (Not that I haven’t done anything at all, but nowhere near as much as I should have.)

So I was at the beginning of writing up this post, sitting here thinking about how thereĀ hadĀ to be some sort of reasoning for the sapping-feeling. (At least when it has lasted this long.) I thought about SAD yesterday, but fall isn’t depressing for me. Fall and winter have been great for me (writing-wise) in the past. I’mĀ excitedĀ about fall and winter. (Besides, I’ve seen more sun in the last month than I did in all of spring and summer combined, I think.) I’ve worried more than once that I was having another repeat of whatever in the world was going on with me back in the summer, where I spentĀ waaaaayĀ too long so far down inĀ somethingĀ negative that I was concernedĀ I’d somehow had some major personality shift or something. But this has been more a lack of energy/drive than legitimateĀ downĀ feelings.

For amusement, I looked up if Mercury was in retrograde again. You know what? IT IS. And WHEN did it start?

Three weeks ago.

Initially, I laughed the ‘Mercury in retrograde’ stuff off. I posted about it, mostly to be funny (and because I thought it was strange). I’m starting to wonder if it actuallyĀ doesĀ make a difference, at least with me. I just think it’s weird that this feeling started at the beginning of it and has lasted the whole way through it, YET AGAIN.

The good news?

It supposedly ends tomorrow. I would say that if I miraculously feel closer to 100% tomorrow, then I’d be set on it. But if that happens, I’ll probably go with it being a mental thing. I’d imagine I’m going to spend the rest of the day thinking that thingsĀ areĀ going to get better tomorrow, which will (possibly) in turnĀ makeĀ things better tomorrow. (At least where my headspace is concerned.)

To be honest though, just potentially seeing a light at the end of this tunnelĀ doesĀ make me feel better. I miss being at 100% and having the feeling that I actuallyĀ accomplishedĀ stuff.

Like I said, I haven’t been completely idle. Things are still moving along with the cover for the first in the trilogy. The front cover is almost complete (just needs the font). The back (cover) is on hold at the moment because I haven’t finished writing the blurb for it. I’m really so horrible at blurbs. IĀ haveĀ been super excited about that. (The cover, not the blurb-writing.) And thingsĀ areĀ still looking good for me to hit the projected release date for it in December. So all that is really great. Obviously I’m still worried that something is going to happen to prevent that. I’m always ‘looking up and waiting for the sky to fall’ . . .

I guess I’ll just have to wait and see.

Anyway, I hope everyone has been doing fantastically, and IĀ reallyĀ hope that whatever is going on with me hasn’t been messing with any of you. I’m really starting to think that Mercury is a major a-hole.

Charles E. Yallowitz Interview on *Changes* Episode 9, October 22nd!

Legends of Windemere

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SIT IN AND WATCH THE 1ST LIVE INTERVIEW OF FANTASY AUTHOR, CHARLES E. YALLOWITZ

Thatā€™s right everyone.Ā  Iā€™m having my first video interview next Wednesday, so you get to hear my voice and see my face for an hour.Ā  Click on the link above to see the site and I hope to see everyone there.Ā  You can even type in questions as the interview goes along and get into the action.Ā  The interview will also be going onto YouTube once itā€™s done.Ā  Needless to say Iā€™m nervous and excited.

A big thank you to Sally Ember, Ed.D., for giving me this opportunity.

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Author Feature: Charles Yallowitz

Check out this interview with Charles Yallowitz!

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From the blog of Nicholas C. Rossis, author of science fiction, the Pearseus epic fantasy series and children's booksRegular visitors will surely recognize Charles Yallowitz, author of Legends of Windemere. Charles is one of the top commentators over here, and I am always looking forward to his witty, thought-provoking comments. As such, I consider him one of the great new friends Iā€™ve made since publishing my epic fantasy series Pearseus a little under a year ago.

Thinking itā€™s high time we got to know a little more about this lovely gentleman, I asked him to be interviewed and he kindly agreed. You can also watchĀ him live on Sally Sue Emberā€™s show CHANGESĀ onĀ Wednesday Oct 22nd, from 10-11 AM (EST).

The Usual Questions

From the blog of Nicholas C. Rossis, author of science fiction, the Pearseus epic fantasy series and children's booksHi Charles, itā€™s great to have you here! What inspired you to write Legends of Windemere?

This book series is loosely based on a Dungeons & Dragons game that I played in college.Ā  At the time, I was working on earning aā€¦

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Review of Reave – Book 1 of the Reave series by C. Miller

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This is a really interesting read. Miller writes with great force and intensity that swept me up when reading the sample, so that Iā€™d clicked on the Buy button without even thinking about ā€“ no matter that Iā€™m stacked up with books, both actual and virtual, that will probably keep me occupied for MONTHS, if not yearsā€¦

reaveHow far would you go to be freeā€”to make your own choices without being subjected to punishment for doing what you felt was right? Could you kill for it? After being abandoned by her father as a child, Aster spent ten years of her life as a servant for the leaderā€™s House in the broken city of New Bethel. Sheā€™d known, even as a child, that the cities of her world were corrupt places with human monstersā€”assassinsā€”running rampant between their high walls. Thinking everything will remain the same as it always has thereā€¦

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Going-ons

This isn’t my usual sort of post, so bear with me here. I’d planned on re-blogging several things, but I figured I would put them all in one post and just link to everything so as not to be annoying/overload the ‘Reader’. So, check out the going-ons!

The first link I want to share is for a post on Ben’s Bitter Blog. If you don’t know him, you should. If I’m biased about that, it totally doesn’t matter. And while I AM biased where Bitter Ben is concerned (blogging buddy turned one of my best friends in the entire world, no joke), that has no impact on his funniness. The particular post I wanted to shareĀ neededĀ to be shared because he made ‘me’ part of it. It was a long, drawn out conversation that led to me waiting about two months for this post. So, check out: The Bitter Realm Conclusion – The Lost Relics (There are links to the first two in that post.) And check out the rest of his blog while you’re there.

The next I want to share is for Charles Yallowitz. He’s doing a campaign on Thunderclap, which seems to be like Kickstarter sans the money. Basically all you have to do is go click on something to say you support it, and if he gets enough supporters, there will be a blast of support for him and his work (which is awesome). You can check out his post here (you might want to, because I have no idea what I’m talking about), or go directly to the site by clicking here.

The next link for sharing is a review for Reave. I’m so late in providing the link to this, but I’m still trying to get caught up on everything. It was a really unexpected treat to look at GoodReads one day and see it there, and even more unexpected to stumble across it on her blog (which you should follow because she’s super great). So, here that is: CiSu’s review of Reave

The last is for an interview I did with Robert Tozer. He’d asked me to do that several months ago, and I don’t even want to say how long it took me to. (It took me a long time.) He was super awesome about dealing with me, and I have a ridiculous amount of appreciation for that. You can find the interview by going to his site, clicking on ‘Interviews’ down at the bottom, then clicking on ‘Click Here For More Interviews’ up in the top right. Also, he’ll be releasing his first book in October, so be on the lookout for that!

 

That’s basically it for now. I really hope you’ll all check this stuff out!

ENDWORLD – A Novel, The Shane Campaign Edition is NOW AVAILABLE FOR PURCHASE!

Please check this out.

THE ENDWORLD SERIES

Hello again, everyone! I hope you all are enjoying these last, waning days of the Summer and are looking forward to a long, holiday weekend filled with family, friends, beaches, barbecues and all around good times! Soon our focus will be shifting from milkshakes and peaches to Pumpkin Spice Lattes and apples (though you canā€™t really tell tonight; up here in southeastern Pennsylvania itā€™s hot and humid). While I love the Fall (and will likely write more about it in subsequent days, weeks and months), that is not the reason why Iā€™m writing this tonight. I am writing this tonight for another, much more important reason. And that reason?

ENDWORLD ā€“ A Novel, The Shane Campaign Edition is NOW AVAILABLE FOR PURCHASE! It went ā€œliveā€ as Iā€™d hoped, and can now be ordered from Amazon, Barnes and Noble, the iBookstore, Createspace, Smashwords, Koboā€¦ you name it! Here are the linksā€¦

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Book Sixty of 2014: Reave by C. Miller

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How far would you go to be freeā€”to make your own choices without being subjected to punishment for doing what you felt was right? Could you kill for it?
After being abandoned by her father as a child, Aster spent ten years of her life as a servant for the leaderā€™s House in the broken city of New Bethel. Sheā€™d known, even as a child, that the cities of her world were corrupt places with human monstersā€”assassinsā€”running rampant between their high walls.
Thinking everything will remain the same as it always has there, Aster is startled to discover that one day . . . the cycle breaks. As a young new leader takes a strange andā€”at timesā€”horrifying interest in her, will she be capable of discovering the reasons behind his actions and orders?
In a world where nothing is as it seems and all things are never anywhere near asā€¦

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Bad Headspace . . .

Being away for four or five days doesn’t seem very long at all. As I mentioned in the last post, sometimes I disappear for a month or so from everywhere just to write. That’s usually the only thing that stops me from being ANYWHERE for any (decently) substantial length of time. So I guess this newest (small) break (of sorts) was a pretty new sort of experience for me.

I’ve taken actual breaks before, where I don’t ‘work’ at all. Usually when a new video game comes out. I’ll spend a week or so playing it (bonus points for couch co-op because that means I get to spend time with Husband too). I’ll take a bit of time here and there when I’m waiting for other things to happen because . . . hey, might as well.

I know I’ve mentioned before that when I’m not working, IĀ want to beĀ working. (And will be ‘plotting’ (as much as I ever really can/do) books out while I’m doing other things.) The last few days haven’t been an exception in that regard, but there was one definite difference.

Usually, when I’m inside, I’m wanting to be in my shed. Even if I’m not writing at that point, or editing, I want to be out here because this is myĀ space. This is where I check the rest of the world at the door and get to think aboutĀ nothingĀ but work. (Is it work if you loveĀ it?) The last few days have been an exception because I honestly just didĀ notĀ want to be out here.

I worded that wrong. I wanted to be out here. I just couldn’t.

It’s sort of weird (maybe) how it happened, but I’ve been in one of the worst headspaces I’ve occupied in a pretty long while. (It was a piling.)

It started with me getting utterly overwhelmed by the amount ofĀ stuffĀ I have to do. I get frustrated at how long it takes me to do . . . pretty much everything. So I think I was just over-thinking a lot of these things. Asking, “How am I supposed to get all this done and have time to EVER write again?” rather than saying, “I just need to (mentally) shut up and do it.”

That alone would’ve been fine enough. I’m pretty used to having quite a bit on my plate. (Or am used to juggling multiple plates at once. Or, er, used to having multiple plates that I will ‘juggle’ one at a time of.)

I watched a TV show the other day, at the ‘start’ of this bad headspace. It’s probably wrong of me to do, but I’ve been blaming a not-so-good mood going from that to undeniably horrible on that show.

I started watching Cold Justice last season. I’m kind of weird with shows like that. Love detective shows, but some . . . no. (The way I explain it is: I have no issues seeing a [prop] head in a box, but I have issues if the show shows how said [prop] head ended up being in said box. Meaning, I don’t like/can’t watch CSI.) I watched a few episodes of Criminal Minds while my husband was deployed. Then I had to stop because, no matter how interesting the show was to me, it just got to beĀ too much. (I’m weird about blood in shows/movies. I don’t mind seeing it there as long as I don’t have to see how it got there.)

Anyway, I love detective shows. I love trying to figure out who the bad guys are (usually do) and why they did what they did (usually do). But there are certain sorts of things that really . . . bother me. When I start thinking about real people doing the sorts of things I’m watching, whether or not it’s plausible, etc. . . . yeah, that really gets to me.

So yeah, Cold Justice. Even though that is them going around working on REAL cold cases . . . I’ve been pretty alright with it. Sure, there have been the moments of, “Oh my god,” or, “blah blah, that bastard, blah blah.” I don’t have the ‘disconnect’ that I have in shows like Sherlock, or Elementary, or The Mentalist (which used to be one of my favorites) because there’s no ‘this isn’t real’ barrier. I get angry a lot of the time, watching it.

Anyway, a few episodes ago, it was a check-up one. And they had John Walsh on there hosting.

So I got this bright idea to watch The Hunt with John Walsh.

Big mistake, C. BIG MISTAKE.

There I was, already at the beginning of a horrendous mood, and I watch an episode of that show. I almost cried. The entire show, I was almost in tears at just how . . .Ā messed upĀ (not wording that how I want) it all was. Then I was torn about how good it is to have stuff like that out there, when the ‘person’ is still on the loose. (I really hope someone catches that . . . . man. (Not wording that how I want to either.) I don’t care that he’s as old as the hills now. Don’t freaking care.)

I was genuinely upset. Then something frustrating happened while I was still trying to deal with all the not-good-feels from that. I went to sleep, woke up, got frustrated by something else, and the story moves on.

My point is that every time I thought I might be getting out of that headspace, something else would happen to pull me right back into it. (Many, many things over the few days.) I had all this stuff I needed (still need) to do, and I just couldn’t. I didn’t feel like I could deal with any of it, and I said something I have never once (to my knowledge) said before this point.

“I can’t even be out here right now.” (My shed.)

So I played Skyrim. That was what I did. No matter how frustrating that game is or can be, I really felt like I justĀ couldn’t. I don’t ever really get to the ‘I can’t work at all’ point because I’m always wanting to write. Getting other things done means I can get back to it, so I’m alwaysĀ wantingĀ to do something.

I’ve woken up every day of the last few thinking, ‘Maybe today will be the day [where I’ll be able to get back to it].’ And it just kept not-happening. Got upset yesterday when I went inside because feeling like I couldn’t be out here is just . . . not right.

The shed is, like I said, my place to check the world at the door. I didn’t like feeling it had turned into something else. (The place where I got completely overwhelmed by absolutely everything and could do absolutely everything apart from what I want to do [write].)

It took me a really long time with this to realize that taking breaks for myself is alright. When my anxiety sets off for whatever reasons it does . . . it’s okay to take some time and recenter myself. (I’m talking about when my anxiety gets me to the ‘I can’t function right now’ point, which it occasionally does.) I guess that even though I know as much, it’s still difficult for me to put all the stuff I need to do out of my head. But I really think that not letting myself get to where I have been this week is important. I don’t want to get to ‘shut down mode’ ever again. I honestly felt like I’d just . . .Ā crashed. (When you open your laptop, ready to work, and it shuts itself down with updates only to take FIVE YEARS to reboot. That’s something to compare it to, only it was a crash rather than a reboot.)

So I’m popping in to say that I’m not completely done with this pseudo-break. I think I’m going to take the rest of this week (which is almost over) and next week as well. I’m going to write, and I’m going to try to make a REALISTIC schedule for myself. (For writing/blogging/etc./etc./etc./etc./etc./etc.) I also need to figure out how to rearrange these questions for the video Q&A in order to split it into separate ones. I’d already had them arranged a certain way. Anyway, that’s on the to-do list as well – trying to tackle all that.

I think that just setting up something I know I can tackle will be best for me. That way I’m not stressing out about absences (because everyone will expect them) and whatnot. I’ll still be able to write. Theoretically.

I WILL be posting something tomorrow, so check back for that (if you want to).

And I’m not saying that I won’t be stopping in anywhere this week, only that I might not. IĀ willĀ be trying to get caught up with responding to emails/messages/comments/etc.

Hopefully this schedule thing will work out.

Sorry this was so long.

 

The battle continues . . .

Reave by C. Miller (Book Review)

A really great review by Charles Yallowitz! šŸ˜€

Legends of Windemere

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I thought I knew how I would start this review as I was coming to the end of, but that ending was a real brain scrambler.Ā  Not in a bad way, but in a way that what I thought was going to be revealed wasnā€™t exactly right.Ā  I was getting curious about the storyā€™s slow pace since it felt like the ending would be rushed.Ā  Instead, itā€™s left on a fantastic cliffhanger with one of the best final lines that Iā€™ve read in a long time.Ā  Very thankful that I read this after the sequel came out because of this.

The world that is painted is gritty and cruel from the beginning.Ā  It lightens up a little as Aster, the main character, matures and develops.Ā  Still, you never shake the sense that there is harsh classism in this world and a person can get beaten atā€¦

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