It’s contagious, isn’t it?
I’ve said it before on here that I had no idea what to expect when I started this thing. Kind of silly, isn’t it, to have never contemplated the fact that I would be interacting with other writers on an outlet where everyone is a writer of some sort? I could laugh at myself for it, if I didn’t feel so ignorant.
If I could go back with that knowledge – a week, two weeks, a year…what would I think?
A very small portion of me wonders if I would’ve been jealous. I am not a jealous person by nature, as I feel that no one person has any more or less to offer than the next. But given that I’d never had a dream before the AUTHOR dream…Would I be jealous to see other people living it while I was struggling to keep my head above the water?
It’s a very small portion that thinks – at first glance – I very well might have assumed I would be.
I am not jealous.
I am the furthest thing from it.
I keep going to these random people’s blogs. Some of them have books published; some of them are struggling to get through writing their first.
Some of them are raging in excitement over a request for a manuscript, or the first glance at the finished product of the first thing the world will see of all their hard work – the cover. The availability of the finished product – a piece of their life, ready and waiting for the world to grab hold of.
I’m not surprised that I feel no resentment, but I am somewhat surprised by my own reaction towards all of it.
I keep smiling. I am so excited for these people, struggling and prevailing. I am so excited for these people to be having the moment that I am so looking forward to having myself – the moment that I will have, one way or another. And I’m smiling now as I write this.
I smile when someone seems genuinely appreciative of anything that I have to say to them.
This website is somewhat exhausting. I feel like I don’t have enough hours in the day to do everything that I want to, but…it’s worth it.
So, to all of my fellow authors out there – whether aspiring, like me, or established – I will say to you now the same thing that I try to say to all of you I come across.
And I mean those two words, more deeply than I can express.